Ever since Dr. Rivet talked to me about his girlfriend, I’ve been watching him while I’m helping out, doing busy work like sorting medicines dumped over, washing bandages, being a gopher, etc… I’m trying to figure him out. I always keep inconspicuous when he’s around and thankfully he seems to have pretty much forgotten about me except when my bandages need changing. No new lectures thankfully. He scared me back on the ship and I‘ve been trying to balance my impressions of him. I’m not sure what to make of him. He seems so cold and reserved but he cares for most of his patients with a single minded intensity. I think Ms. White is attracted to him. As far as I can see he’s keeping her at arm’s length. She sees him as a hero… I don’t know.
I don’t really understand it. How can someone look me in the eye and willingly send me off to death, then turn around and work feverishly to keep me alive after I was shot. I still have to stifle the need to flinch away from him whenever he changes my bandages and when possible I like to have company around. I can’t tell if he notices and even if he did if he would care. Maybe the wounded are just inanimate objects to him that he has to mend into some workable order. But no, I can’t really say he’s cold. He’s too passionate about his work for that, maybe he just doesn’t understand people or maybe he’s just reserved or maybe he just doesn’t like me much.
And of course then there is the storyhe told me. What was he trying to tell me? Was he recommending I go for Cameron, was he recommending I stay loyal to Scott. I’m so bad with reading people. I tend to take whatever they tell me at face value but even I can see there was something important in the story he wanted to tell me. Maybe he was just sharing a regret but why with me? I’d say he should tell it to Ms. White, though I’m pretty sure she won’t want to hear about his past girlfriends.